“You left her there. She gave you everything, and you took your hint of guilt and left behind a goodbye and a broken girl.”
And maybe it didn’t hit you at first. Sure, you slept while she stayed up. Your pillows didn’t stain with tears. Your showers didn’t end in sobs. Your stomach didn’t cave in every morning, your heart didn’t ache every breathe.
But maybe you run into her months down the line. Maybe you hear of her new love, the news spilling across the floor like a new stain on the carpet she used to tread on. Maybe you meet her in a coffee shop, and she stopped cutting her hair, and it trails down her back like the past she left you behind in.
And the heart ache isn’t hers anymore. Her smile reaches her eyes now and her laugh lights up the room. You forgot, didn’t you? You forgot the way she held you the night you couldn’t fall asleep. You forgot the way she covers her mouth when she laughs, the way she cups her hands over mugs to keep her fingers warm, the way her hands were always a little bit cold. You forgot the way it felt to know that despite all the flaws that ran through your veins there was someone there to kiss your forehead and brew you tea.
Oh, but you’ll remember. And maybe if you’re lucky, you won’t be holding something fragile when you hear the news. Maybe if you’re lucky your heart will only ache for a fraction as long as hers did. Maybe if you’re lucky, she’ll pick up when you call. But even if she still has all the tenderness for you in the world, her voice is not the same. She doesn’t love you anymore. You lost her. You lost her. And you can’t ever get her back.
“You left her there. She gave you everything, and you took your hint of guilt and left behind a goodbye and a broken girl. And maybe it didn...”
“"I’m sorry, you didn’t deserve that." "No…I kinda did." He looked at her, puzzled. “I…dont’ think I understand.” "I knew he was hurting me...”
“I have tried, tried to fix everything you have broken. My heart, which once was whole, but now is severed, can no longer beat steady rhythm...”
“I thought that if I told myself I’m okay every night before I go to sleep, I would actually one day wake up being okay. But that never...”
“Now and then you still cross my mind. Fuck it, who am I kidding? You’re on it all the time.”
“I think I always knew you would be no good for me but I still chose to let you break my heart. Just for that goddamn smile of yours.”
“` Never expect someone to respect your feelings because you respect theirs. Never expect someone not to hurt you because you would never hur...”