It was easy to love him.
Loving him was like watching rain patter onto the window of my car. He made me feel comforted, deep in thought. It was late night conversations about the future, and promises that we would always be in it together no matter the circumstance. It was memorizing the outline of his freckles, and the space inbetween his fingers. Inheriting his laugh, and falling into his words. Loving him was easy to fall into, he made it that way.
But leaving him was another story.
Leaving him was like pouring acid down my veins. It was countless nights wondering if I was just overthinking or if the red flags I saw were real. Leaving him felt like I was ripping out my lungs, which makes sense because I haven’t been able to breathe since I did it. He thought that it was easy for me, but it wasn’t easy being hurt time after time. Broken promise after broken promise. It wasnt easy to choose to grieve over someone still alive.
“It was easy to love him. Loving him was like watching rain patter onto the window of my car. He made me feel comforted, deep in thought. It ...”
“I want to wake up on your side of the bed because we’re drawn to each other even in our sleep. I want to wake up with my head on your chest ...”
“I’m sorry to call but I just needed to know; Darling, was I really that easy to let go?”
“Maybe it doesn’t make sense. Maybe it never will. Just because you offered up the best of yourself, just because you gave away your love as ...”
“Don’t date an overthinker. She’ll spend days analyzing your facial expressions when you speak, and nights deciphering what the period placem...”
“I don’t know when it happened, or why it happened. You just stopped. There were no more phone calls in the middle of the night when you c...”
“You don’t love him anymore but sometimes when you look at the sky it seems to be the same shade of blue as his eyes. You don’t l...”
“I am the girl before the girl. Because I am far too much of everything. But this will teach you what you want in someone. You will see t...”
“remember how it took me 15 minutes to choose a flavor of ice cream? i am never sure about anything but i was so damn sure about you.”
“I’m sorry but I fell in love that night. My mind has since been filled with thoughts of only you and the way you looked at me. The sou...”
“We are all endlessly soft for someone. You would love them in the middle of the night if they came to your door, slurring and bloodshot. Yo...”