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  • Friend:Hey, how are you?
  • Me:I'm a little sad tbh, but it's alright!
  • Me:Wait, was that Manipulative? Was it Too Much™? Are they now going to think I'm a negative attention seeker? Or Worse! Are they going to ask me what's wrong and be further Manipulated by me?!?!?!?!?!

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  • Friend:Hey, how are you?
  • Me:I'm a little sad tbh, but it's alright!
  • Me:Wait, was that Manipulative? Was it Too Much™? Are they now going to think I'm a negative attention seeker? Or Worse! Are they going to ask me what's wrong and be further Manipulated by me?!?!?!?!?!
The thing about being a self-aware borderline is that you’re a living contradiction.It’s like “so, i’m completely aware of how irrational and clingy and stupid i sound and i know you don’t actually hate me, bUT DO YOU HATE ME?”Or “yes, this was a very minor issue and i shouldn’t really be angry abou...
r u ever feeling totally ok and then all of a sudden you remember something or see a thing that reminds you of something and then it switches and it’s Death Time
Before we go any further, I need you to understand something. I am not a person. I am a mirror. Soon, I’ll adopt your speech patterns. Your style of clothing. Even a few of your interests. At first, you might not notice. After a while, you’ll begin to find my behaviors rather odd. ...
how do you explain to someone that you don’t want to die but existing is just a little too hard for you right now
Me: I’m good. I’ve got this. Everything will be okay. Me, 15 minutes later: Everything is awful and I am not okay. 
  • brain:lets get unreasonably angry about a made-up scenario
  • me:why
  • brain:you gotta
me: *gets upset at you* me: *tells you I’m mad in the most passive aggressive way possible* me: *apologizes for getting upset before you even have a chance to respond* me: *invalidates my own emotions* me: *gets upset at you for not caring more that I was upset* me: *gets upset at myself for...
Does anyone else forget that mental illness symptoms aren’t normal? Like, most people don’t want to kill themselves constantly??? That’s so weird.
me: *about to cry* friend: are u ok? me: of course i am!!!! im 100% fine wow how about you?? if you need anyone to talk to, im here for you!!!
Looking back on your childhood like, “That was a symptom”… “That was a symptom”… “Oh, remember that time? Yeah, a symptom.”
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