oh my god you have no idea how much i’ve thought about this ever since i first saw the movie so i’m going to talk to you about it okay
i had no knowledge of star trek when i saw into darkness, i hadn’t even seen the 2009 movie. during that scene i honestly thought that kirk was lining up to tell spock that he loves him when he said “I want you to know why I couldn’t let you die. Why I went back for you.” because wtf no one says that and then goes “because we’re bffs"
i felt like i was invading on something so personal between them that even seeing it was really overwhelming
this is jim’s face right after spock says "because you are my friend”. you can tell that his message didn’t truly get across, and he’s thinking something along the lines of “no. you still don’t understand.”
you can see him realize what jim is trying to say. he looks at jim in shock and you can actually see his pain escalate because he’s about to lose jim immediately after the realization that jim could have been his
and jim uses his last bits of strength and smiles at the sight of their hands pressed together in a gesture usually reserved for bond mates because he’s probably wanted this for so long and even if he’s dying and this is the last time he’ll see spock he still smiles at the sight
and jim uses his last moments to try and say something to spock, but all that comes out is a cough, so he settles for smiling at him and trying to let his eyes speak for him and hope they can portray all of the love he feels for spock in a single look before he finally lets go and his hand slowly slides off of the glass
i was in pain for weeks after seeing this fucking movie and it only got worse after seeing the 2009 one and then watching into darkness again